healthier, happier, sweatier.

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So, today I kept to my points (for Weightwatchers) and went for a very strenuous brisk walk on the treadmill.  Tomorrow I might try to go into work early so that I can go for a walk on the treadmill and maybe do some free weights.  We have two treadmills and a full locker room (with showers) at work, so this might actually work.

And I have to say, I was pretty happy today.

I got a LOT of work done today, just really booked through it.  I have a pretty fun meeting tomorrow after work, so I am looking forward to that.

God is so good.

starting a truly organic adventure

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Well, you may or may not have noticed a new tab at the top of this page titled “organicalicious”.  As part of my new journey into organica, I thought I would keep tabs on all of the wonderful information that my aunt shared with me today as well as everything I am researching.

I don’t think that this will be a 100% switch, but we are definitely going to explore changing a few key items.  We’ve already switched to organic milk.

Baby steps.

Please share any links, information, ideas, learnings, etc!

i've had enough.

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I am done.

I am tired of not being in control of my hormones and my body and my life.  And it’s not about control, either.  Control is the wrong word.
I am not disciplined.  In this whole battle, I’ve caved on discipline.

I am not in the Word as regularly as I should.

I am not watching what I eat as carefully as I need to.

I am not working out daily.

I am not prioritizing my own time and when I do, I veg.

No. More.

I can’t control pretty much anything.  But I can be more disciplined.

PS. I  start progesterone treatment tomorrow, so if you are in the area, now is a good time for vacation!

the tick tock of the clock is painful

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all sane and logical…
I want to tear it off the wall!

This morning we went in for the IUI.  Well, Frank went in first.  Then I showed up about an hour later.

Before we began the procedure, the doctor let us know that our odds, because of some of my weird test results, are about half of what a normal couple’s odds are with IUI.  And those odds are pretty slim to begin with anyway.

Hey, it’s a lot better than what we would have had on our own.  I won’t turn my nose up at any chance.  I will embrace it and hope that I am on the good side of those odds.

The procedure was quick and pretty painless.  Just a little bit of cramping and then we sat and waited and prayed. 

And then Frank tried to take his forehead’s blood pressure and check my heart rate with the stethoscope.

The only thing that stopped him from following through was that I reminded him that the stethoscope had been in other people’s ears.

Moving on.

We won’t know for quite some time whether or not this worked.  I take great comfort in knowing a few very important things:

  1. God is sovereign over all things.  This means my life is under His authority.  He has control of this situation – all of this is in His hands.
  2. God has a plan.  It may not be my plan, but it is a plan.  And that plan is to give us hope and a future.  It may not be the way I want it, but it will be the right way.
  3. My husband is awesome.  He is a tremendous partner and friend.  But – I swear to you Frank – if you don’t put away the exam light that is attached to the exam table, I will make you sit outside in the lobby.  Ok?

So that’s it.  Praise God that we’ve made it this far!  Praise Him that we are not out of options! 

And now we wait and hope and pray.

Tick. Tock.  Tick.  Tock.

big day

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Tomorrow is the big day!  We could use lots of prayers!!  (and by big day, I mean IUI DAY!)

That’s all I have for you.  I’m hopeful.  I’m prayerful.  And if it doesn’t work, there’s always next month.

whoa

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Ok, welcome to crazy town.  Population FK & EK.

Prayers were answered – we have a mature follicle! 

However, the cluster that has ensued in order to get this little follicle ruptured and, you know, “taken care of” has been a little nerve wrecking.

Our original plan was for me to take the shot that causes the ovary to eject the egg today at 4 p.m. and then go in for the IUI tomorrow at noon.

That was until FK’s company extended his stay in FL.  At the moment, he is trying to get back, but since we aren’t 100% certain of his travel situation, we have had to juggle things a little bit…

So now, we are hoping that I don’t ovulate (which I shouldn’t ovulate on my own) and tomorrow I have a follow up ultrasound.  Then I will take the shot later that day and go in for the IUI Wednesday.

Thank you for being prayer warriors on our behalf.  It is making all the difference in the world.

And if you could keep praying, that would be excellent. 

PS.  Not having a good hair day today.  But hey, you win some and you lose some.

follicologilicious

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Because invasive ultra sounds are oh-so-much-fun, I’ve decided to pop by the doctor’s office and see if they could just see how my ovaries are doing.

So, lube up the magic stick, Emmy is on her way!

Was that TMI?

My bad.  🙂

So, while I’m getting my follicology on, it would be most excellent if you could pray for us.  Please pray first, and foremost, that God’s will is done.  And second, please pray that He would bless us with children.  And third, just for fun, please pray that I have a good hair day tomorrow.

There’s nothing worse than going in to have your hoo-ha inspected and having bad hair.

Your serious prayers on the first two request is appreciated.

And if you want to toss in the freebie #3 request, that’s cool, too.

Thank you.  🙂

six years of marriage…

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Panda 1

as depicted by pandas.  (an anniversary email from my husband)

***

We’re responsible adults

Panda 2Frank: So we skipped church last night, slept through the early service and now it’s noon.

Emily: Roll over.

***

Models of moderation

Panda 3Frank: Hey, it’s not a big deal, but there are 5 empty 2-liter bottles of Diet Coke in the recycling bin…

Emily: I don’t want to talk about it.

Frank: No, it’s ok, I just…

Emily: I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

***

We embrace every moment

Panda 4

Emily: Hey, whatcha doinnnnnn?

Frank: Playing Civilization.  Invading Germany. Go away.

***

We’re models of patience

Panda 5

Frank: No Emmmiiieeeeeee!  It’s 8 o’clock and she’s still not home from woooooooorrrkkkk!

***

We look out for eachother

Panda 6

Frank: Umm, no.  No grays at all. Maybe one or two, but that’s it.

***

We seize the day

Panda 7

Emily: Snooze.

Frank: Em, it’s 7:30.

Emily: Snooze!

Frank: Em, you’re going to be…

Emily: 10 more minutes!!

***

We’ve perfected laptop TV watching

Panda 8

Emily: I’m so glad you’re home.

Frank: Me too.

Emily: … maybe we shouldn’t keep the laptop on your boys.

***
And of course, there’s the grown up stuff…
Panda 9
Frank: Like this?
Emily: No, Frank.
Panda 10
Frank: Like this?
Emily: ::sigh:: No, Frank.

Panda 12

Frank: Like this?
Emily: There we go!

God is good

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This morning, things were a bit shakey.  An armed robber was on the loose and hijacked a car a block away from my office.  Awesome.  We were on soft lockdown for most of the morning.

But in the end, the day turned out great.  My work got done.  The sun was shining.  I got into my car in time to hear the “Five O’Clock Whistle” on the radio station I listen to.

I hadn’t heard that sound in YEARS.  YEARS!

Oh, and the pesky armed robber crashed his car into a tree this afternoon and is going back to jail.

Today, the fields in the forest preserve are turning a lovely warm shade of gold.  There was not a single cloud in the sky as I drove home from work.

I stopped at the grocery store on my way home from work to pick up some delicious produce for a salad.  I drove back to our cozy home, where the sun was streaming through the leaves on the trees in the park behind our house and kids were playing soccer and all the world was as it should be.

And tomorrow is my 6 year wedding anniversary to an amazing man.  Does it get any better?  I think not.

Even though we’re going through a lot with the fertility biz, our cups run over with all of the blessings God has given us.

So hey, it’s a Chicago September Friday.  It’s beautiful and delicious and vibrant all at the same time.

God is good.