Well, we had a good-bye party for Kate, my friend from 6th grade on, and it was happy but sad at the same time. I really wish I had more words to put around this, but I really don’t. Half of me feels like, “This is life, people move around and move on” and half of me feels like, “Wow, this is really sad because Kate has always been a significant friend in my life.”
Kate and I used to argue for hours about XFiles and stupid stuff. We used to throw shot put and discus and play violin in the orchestra. Well, until I decided to play the cello. Anyway. I guess it’s hard to get too broken up because I know we have email and AIM and the phone, so no one is ever very far. But then again, you can’t go have coffee on the cell and you can’t see a movie online. Well, together, at least.
So yeah, in honor of Kate, I am posting a song that makes me think of driving down our old home roads with Jamie, singing these lyrics as loud as we could (well, once I learned them…)
I’m packed and I’m holding
I’m smiling, she’s living, she’s golden
She lives for me, says she lives for me
Ovation, her own motivation
She comes round and she goes down on me
And I make her smile, like a drug for you
Do ever what you wanna do, coming over you
Keep on smiling, what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
Come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play, she said…
I want something else, to get me through this
Semi-charmed kinda life, baby, baby
I want something else, I’m not listening when you say good-bye
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there, someplace back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal myth, will lift you up until you break
It won’t stop, I won’t come down
I keep stock with the tick-tock rhythm, I bump for the drop
And then I bumped up, I took the hit that I was given
Then I bumped again, then I bumped again
I said…
How do I get back there, to the place where I fell asleep inside you
How do I get myself back to the place where you said…
I want something else, to get me through this
Semi-charmed kinda life, baby, baby
I want something else, I’m not listening when you say good-bye
I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I’m with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right
And when the plane came in, she said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city, we tripped on the urge to feel alive
Now I’m struggling to survive, those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You’re the priestess, I must confess
Those little red panties they pass the test
Slide up around the belly, face down on the mattress
One
And you hold me, and we’re broken
Still it’s all that I wanna do, just a little now
Feel myself, head made of the ground
I’m scared, I’m not coming down
No, no
And I won’t run for my life
She’s got her jaws now, locked down in a smile
But nothing is all right, all right
And I want something else, to get me through this life
Baby, I want something else
Not listening when you say…
Good-bye, good-bye, good-bye
Good-bye
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there
Someplace back there, in the place we used to start
I want something else
Third Eye Blind, “Semi Charmed Life”
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