After having the twins, I was secretly worried that I’d never want to work out again.

I know that sounds weird, but it’s true.  I was worried that I’d lose all motivation.  That I’d become one of those people who are just so overwhelmed by my children that all I can do is sit on the couch and hold them and pray that they wouldn’t cry.

Don’t get me wrong – when they were brand new preemies, there was a lot of sitting on the couch, holding them and praying.  Although I was generally praying they wouldn’t vomit on me.

But now that the girls are three months old, sleeping a little bit more consistently and generally not vomiting as much as they had been (praise God!), I feel like I can indulge in jogging again.

Mentally this is going to take a lot of effort on my part.  Let’s assess the situation.

First, I am carrying a bit more weight than I had been carrying over a year ago when I had been running.  I haven’t weighed myself in a while (ah, the mental anguish of the scale), but I estimate that I am still carrying about 10 lbs from my pregnancy.  I had also gained about 30 lbs during fertility treatments in the two years prior to conceiving the twins.  Oh, joy of joys.  That all being said, jogging will likely require a lot more mental stamina than it had in the past.

Second, because I don’t know how jogging will go, I am a bit afraid to do it.  Even the first few jogging steps that I will take will require a lot of focus and determination.  I have to re-learn my body and I have to re-learn the skill of mentally pushing myself further than I feel like I can go – without injuring myself.  Anyone who knows me in real life knows that I am injury-prone.  And no, I am not someone who “pulls a hammy” – I am someone who gets distracted, trips over my own feet and falls super-man style on my hands and knees.  Yeah.

Third, I am going to put myself on a running schedule after today.  It’s going to require a lot of time management coordination since I go back to work full time after Memorial Day.  We are considering buying a jogging stroller, but I don’t think I can even put the girls in the stroller until they are 6 months old.  Does anyone have any recommendations?  I’m looking at you, Runblondie!  If I am going to be committed to running again, I want to make sure that I have the right baby gear so that I can’t use it as an excuse!

I will post an update after my afternoon run…  This will be interesting…