I was a little dramatic with my post last night, so I feel that I should add an addendum explaining the situation a little bit better.
My follicles (developing eggs) are at 9 mm. Over 5 days, my follicles only grew 1 mm (normal growth rates are 2mm per day). In order for them to be ruptured, they need to be at 18 mm. Hopefully, my body will kick into gear and remember how to grow a follicle (we were doing so well with that, little ovaries!). I have a third follicology on Thursday to see if my ovaries do anything. It’s looking like, if these follicles grow at a faster pace, we will do the IUI next week – possibly.
It’s hard to tell with my doctor whether or not she’s optimistic because she’s an optimistic person – or if she’s optimistic because it’s an optimistic situation. FK feels the same way – it’s hard to tell if she’s just trying to keep our spirits up or if she genuinely means it. I guess, from her perspective, fertility has so many variables and a woman’s cycle can vary greatly from month to month, she probably expects the unexpected to some degree.
It’s not that I’ve lost hope entirely. I just think that the month after month of weird test results and the bad-news-good-news ride, I am having a hard time seeing a positive outcome on this.
I know that God hears my prayers. I know that it is entirely within the realm of His capabilities to bless us with a child.
Will He? I hope so.
My emotions have been all over the place with this cycle. I don’t know how much of this is from the medication (probably 75%?) and how much is from weariness (25%). It’s hard when your emotions and your body do not feel like your own.
That being said, we’re going to give this a few more cycles. My doctor said that the second and third cycles of IUI are usually the best chances.
Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers. We both really, really appreciate it. Please keep praying!!