And you can tell everybody…

… this is our song:

I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe the love you talk about with me
Is it true, do I care
Honestly, you can try to wipe the memories aside
But it’s you that you erase
’cause there’s no place that I could be without you
It’s too far to discard the life I once knew
Honestly, all the weather and storms I bring
Are just a picture of my needs
’cause when I think of you as mine
And allow myself with time
To lead into the life we wantI feel loved, honestlyI feel loved, this honestly

I believe you mean the best that life can bring
I believe in it all
Honestly, you can try
Your heart is just as long as mine
Is it ours to let go
’cause there’s no place that I could be without you
It’s too dark to discard the life I once knew
Honestly, a single wrong is not enough
To cover up the pain in us
’cause when I think of you as mine
And allow myself with time
To lead into the life we wantI feel loved, honestly
I’ll make a joke so you must laugh
I’ll break your heart so you must ask
Is this the way to get us back
I don’t know, honestly
I don’t know, this honestly
There’s no place that I could be without you

There’s no place that I could be without you
There’s no place that I could gleam without you
There’s no place that I could dream without you
There’s no place that I could be without you


i'm back

i’m back – minus fibey. And let me tell you – while the wound hurts (read: No bending, lifting, moving, turning, rolling over – or it feels like I’m on FIRE), the air bubbles are far worse. See, what happens when they open you out and remove your uterus and then put it back in (good times), air gets into your cavity. And that air has to get out, but since it’s not in your digestive track, it has to be absorbed into your muscles and THAT HURTS. So all this air in my stomach is pushing through my rib cage and up my body. It hurts like a fricker, let me tell you. When I lie down, I can hardly breath because of the air pushing on my muscles.


Anyway, other than that, I’m not too drugged up. My beautiful Mother in Law is here helping me (she made some chicken soup and is doing laundry – aww!). She took me on 2 walks this morning and we might go for another if I can get some rest.

Thank you all for your prayers and support!!

christmas for emily

I am in Chicago celebrating what my industry calls The Feast of the Epiphany. Wait. Scratch that. I am celebrating Christmas in May – also called Broadcast Network upfronts. I love it. Monday we saw NBC’s new schedule, Tuesday was ABC and today is CBS. Thursday is Fox (I can’t go – boohoo).

What is fantastic about this time of year is all of the jockeying for positiong. NBC, for example, has struggled for the past 2 seasons to bring forward strong programming. This year, they unveiled an awesome line up with new shows that are sure to at least help the situation. When you’re at rock bottom, I don’t think anything you do could make it worse.

Shows I am looking forward to on NBC:
Friday Night Lights – Football show about a town that rallies around their football team. The show highlights the struggles and celebrations of the high school football stars and their most loyal fans (friends & family). The pilot is sure to be at least a tear jerker. Let’s hope they didn’t waste all of the good scenes on the trailers.

Raines – Jeff Goldblum is back as a detective in a modern day film noir. The twist is Mediumesque because he solves the mysteries by talking to the victims – however, these victims are not ghosts but rather hallucinations and illusions. I can’t wait to see the pilot!

Studio 60 on Sunset Strip – Aaron Sorkin is baaaack! The show casts Matthew Perry and D.L. Hughley as creators of a comedic sketch show gone awry. Matthew’s character has a terrible memory and DL has a drug problem – very edgy dramady (humorous drama). Trademark fast-paced conversation ala West Wing and the ill-fated Sports Night. RIP, Sports Night, RIP.

NBC only unveiled 2 Comedies on the schedule in the fall: 30 Rock and 20 Good Years – both look awesome!

30 Rock – Tina Fey writes what she knows about: writing for a show. In the vein of Dick VanDyke, you never see the show she produces (however, you can watch the sketches online – very cool extension!! ). She works with a hard nosed network guy (Alec Baldwin – very funny) and a difficult comic. Cannot wait – this looks very good.

20 Good Years – John Lithgow (3rd Rock) and Jeffrey Tambor (Arrested Development) are best buds who decide that life is too short to not enjoy it. Determined to make their last 20 years the best years of their lives, they throw caution to the wind. Hilarious antics and awful speedos ensue.

Now for ABC. THere is only one comedy I am excited about for that network – Notes from the Underbelly. The dramas look promising, and it will be interesting to see how their new schedule works as they are changing every night on the schedule.

Notes from the Underbelly – A young husband persuades his resistant wife that it is time to have children. The show is based on their experiences with all things pregnancy: pregnant friends, and friends with children. Looks absolutely hilarious – maybe I like it because 1/2 the poeple I know are pregnant. HA!

Men in Trees – Ann Heche’s drama about a relationship coach that helps all women… except herself. Her fiance cheats on her and she figures it out on her way to Alaska for a speaking engagement. Stranded in Alaska, she finds a new direction in life courtesy of the Alaskan men (population of Alaska is mostly male). The Alaskan men are a riot and as the saying goes, “The odds are good but the goods are odd.” I can’t wait to see this one. I find it mildly entertaining that the woman that dated Ellen is doing a show about heterosexual dating. HA HA.

Brothers and Sisters – This tested poorly, but did better after rewrites. I think it looked interesting – it’s a story about a picture perfect family that discovers that all was not what it seemed. Calista Flockhart stars as the older sister who has a radio show. It’s like Frasier meets Desperate Housewives meets Dallas. or something. Not going to hang my hat on this one.

Traveler – This is not on the fall schedule (read: midseason replacement) and it looks awesome. Apparently Warner Bros. loves this pilot and is pushing for it to get on the air. It’s about three roommates who go to a museum to pull a juvenile prank. One roommate, Will Traveler, video tapes the other two roller blading through the museum, being chased by cops. When the roller blading roommates exit the museum, they receive a phone call from Traveler saying, “I’m sorry to do this to you.” And then the museum explodes. Chased by cops, the roommates run home to find Traveler has taken all of his stuff and disappeared into thin air. The search is on! This looks great – very young 24.

For those of you who care, the Bachelor is back, this time with an Italian prince.

Ok – that’s it. More later on CBS.


well, it’s only saturday and i’m pooped! we’ve already had a busy weekend and tomorrow i’m going down to chicago for the FMI. (Food Marketing Institute) Good times!

So what have I been doing for the past month? Well, we moved into the house (pictures soon to come) and we are fairly well settled in. Friday my friend Kimmie Wimmie came up with her boyfriend. Today we (me, Sarah H and Becky L) hosted a baby shower at my house. It was good – everyone had a very nice time (I think/hope). Yupyup. Time to hang out with Frank. More later.

wife swap.

Well, I think tonight is the first night that Frank seriously considered swapping wives with our friends The Dubs*. Our friend Tadwich would really get the short end of the stick, and I’m not sure Frank would trade Valencia back for me. Sure, Tadwich would think it was funny, but then he’d become a worn out old man, too.

So what has driven Frank over the edge? Well, I have been sort of easing him into the idea of having Easter at our house. Sort of letting him know about people sort of… one at a time. You know, letting him get used to thinking about having a group over. And we have plenty of space. That’s the beauty of the new house – we can have more than 5 people over without breaking fire code. Niiiice. So anyway, I may have lacked honesty through omission. Ok. I did lack honesty via omitting certain guests. So yeah. We’re up to 15 people. Which is a lot for us. Well, for Frank emotionally – and it’s a stretch for me logistically.

Because I have gone through some pretty stressful entertaining situations (ie, smoke in the house, dropping a pan of cooked pasta in the sink as guests were arriving, not being sure of food being properly “done”), I learned not to make things I don’t know how to make. It’s actually a rule Frank created due to more than one harried entertaining experience where I sort of looked at the food, squinted at the picture in the recipe and said, “Do you think this looks close?”

Good times. Good times.

*Names have been changed to protect the innocent.

packed, moved, painted (somewhat), sick

In between this post and the last, Frank and I packed, painted, moved, painted, cleaned, unpacked, cleaned, unpacked… and found out that I have a fibroid and a growth on my left ovary. I probably have more than 1 fibroid – it’s just that the big one is 9 cm in diameter and 2 cm thick. Groovy. I will need to have surgery similar to a c-section (in terms of cutting into the abdomen, etc) to remove the fibroid and depending on the growth on the ovary, that growth may need to come out too.

The good news is that 1) I found out before I became pregnant and before there was any risk to a baby and 2) I now know why my cycles are so long and painful. Mystery solved! Unfortunately, with a family history of fibroids and a fibroid of this size, there is definitely increased risk of miscarriages and 2nd trimester miscarriages.

THe surgery will have me in the hospital for 2 days and out of work for 4-6 weeks (sorry DK!). My work is being so awesome, though, and is going to let me work from home. They realize that I am a mess when I am not doing something… allowing me to work from home is really a great benefit to society. They can probably write off my salary as charitable donation.

Anyway, definitely not looking forward to the surgery. I had an emotionally draining week last week and decided to cancel the large painting party we were going to have. Craig and Jamie still came up from (so sad – we wouldn’t be able to use our TV if Craig didn’t set it up! Thank you Craig!!) and friends from the Milwaukee area stopped in throughout the day, picked up a paint brush/roller and helped get some of the rooms done. I’m really glad we didn’t have a huge event because I was in pain all day Saturday, Sunday and Monday. 😦 The good thing is that some of our friends are able to come up this coming weekend and it will be really nice to just be able to spend time with them and enjoy them, especially since the pain has gone away mostly. YAY!

Hope everyone is doing well. I will post pics when they are available!!