This year was dominated by a few themes:
Old Made New Again
This theme happened in several ways. We moved back to Illinois in 2008, not sure what it would really be like. What has happened is that many of our friendships that were old have become new again. There are so many examples of this regeneration, but specifically I think of one of my longest friendships with Miss Allison Claire. When we were little, we played together nearly every day. There was a rule established that we couldn’t call or go over to each other’s homes before 9 a.m. – and this was established to save our mothers from losing their minds! As we got older, we went separate ways and our friendship was basically on life support because we rarely saw each other. Since we’ve moved back, Allison and I see each other nearly every week! She is truly a joy to spend time with and one of the most positive people I know. I experienced similar rebirths with other friends – and it is awesome! I feel surrounded by wonderful women that I love. It is awesome!
But this theme didn’t just end with friendships, it also carried on to one of the most important relationships in my life – my marriage. Frank and I celebrated our 6th year of marriage. At a time when many marriages start feeling stale, our marriage is still fresh and interesting. One of the pastors at church said the other week, “Presumed familiarity breeds unfamiliarity” – so true! Even though Frank and I know each other so well, we keep learning new things about each other – and with each other. Sure, it hasn’t all been rosy this year, but that’s ok.
This year has also been the year of being humbled. Yeah, I’ve had to swallow my pride on a few fronts. Medically speaking, I’ve been exposed in just about every way possible. Blood draws, invasive ultra-sounds and interesting procedures involving catheters. That’s pretty humbling.
It’s also been humbling because we’ve come face to face with some of our biggest fears and had to ask for help along the way. We’ve had to acknowledge that many of the things we experienced were outside of our control – like Frank’s work schedule and our infertility issues. While we’ve known logically for quite some time that God is bigger than us, these situations have caused us to come face-to-face with our own limitations and humanity. Or something like that. The point is, we continue to be reminded that while there are a great many things we can do, we are ultimately not the ones in control. We are small while God is great.
Ha ha ha
We’ve also been blessed with lots of joy in the midst of crazy times. Tonight as I finished writing this, Frank was sitting next to me and every time I took a sip of the Diet Pomegranate 7-Up, Frank made slurping sounds trying to get me to spit out my drink. The result was that he made himself laugh so much he couldn’t even drink. Special times, for sure. And if we can laugh in the midst of all the stuff we’re going through, that is truly a blessing.
With almost 24 hours left in 2009, it is impossible not to recognize the amazing blessings we’ve had this year: jobs, shelter, family, and friends. I’m excited to move forward into 2010 and to see all of the new things God has in store for us. I wish you all a very safe and happy new year!
See you on the flip side…